Time for (more) change!

My life is a never-ending cycle of self-improvement and I love it! I embarked on this quest to become the best version of me possible at a very young age, as far back as my mind will take me. It's incredible, 23 years in, to see how much learning and growing and improving and maturing has occurred, and knowing how much still lies ahead is intimidating, to say the least. But it's happening. I had another one of my seemingly constant epiphanies last night and told myself I would write this blog this morning and I'm doing it! 10 points to Griffindor!

Haha anyways...so where I'm at now. Happier than I have ever been. Madly in love with the most incredible, supportive, and loving man I thought only existed in fairy tales with three amazing kids who have completely changed my perspective of children and parenting and have enriched my life more than words can say. I have a 3.5 year old son who reminds me daily how beautiful it is to be alive and to have a purpose with no more than a shy smile or an adorable belly laugh. My relationship with my family has improved dramatically. I've made a plethora of new friends and have even better friendships with the few who have stuck beside me after all these years. I'm working on original music with like-minded musicians who have exactly the right mix of passion and talent and flexibility to make the experience what I always imagined it should be...Everything is exciting, exhilarating, and just what I hoped my life could be. The only thing holding me back now is ME.

If I'm going to enjoy this one and only life of mine to the fullest, I will have to make some changes. I need to get my mind and body right before my soul can be at peace. My greatest asset is my ability to self-reflect, so here is the plan. I will use this blog as a daily reminder of the improvements I need to make. I will hold myself accountable. I will be brutally honest in my successes and my failures. Success will be the fuel to keep this train moving and my failures will be a humble reminder of how much work it takes to get the most out of life. The struggle is always worth it. The struggle helps me appreciate what I have more, knowing what I went through to get here, and the ability to share and inspire others to overcome struggles of their own.

Today I will begin by admitting ALL of my bad habits. The habits I want and NEED to get rid of. The bricks on my shoulders I see and feel weighing me down and slowing my pace.  I will also introduce some new habits I know will enhance my life. Out with the bad, in with the good. I want to be held accountable. I want to be a ball of positive energy and light for everyone I know or will meet. I want to be selfless and free from negativity.

Since this is already pretty long I will make a separate post for these.